Sticky Sweet Potato and Lentil Curry

Last week I shared an Insta post about slow roasting sweet potatoes for peak sweetness. I took them to the next level by using leftovers in a lentil curry and I’m still emotional over it. The best part about this dish is that it can be enjoyed both hot and cold, plus it’s packed with protein and my two favorite carb sources (I crave carbs like crazy in the winter they’re so warming and grounding for me)! Anyone else?

 

sticky sweet potato and lentil curry:

-1 onion, diced
-1 cup diced carrots
-slow roasted and chilled sweet potatoes (peeled and chopped into cubes, coated in a LOT of oil and sea salt and a pinch of curry powder, roasted at 320 for 1.5 hours flipping halfway).
-1 cup steamed lentils
-1 cup vegetable broth
-1 can tomato paste
-1 can full fat coconut milk
-1 bag baked kale (raw kale massaged with oil/sea salt/ACV/nutritional yeast and baked at 300 for 45 minutes)
-curry powder, sea salt, cumin

sauté onion and carrots in oil and seasonings until soft. add in lentils, coconut milk, .5 cup vegetable broth, tomato paste and cook for a few minutes. once some of the liquid starts to absorb add in the sweet potatoes and kale and add in remaining broth. turn heart to high and cook for about 5 minutes with constant stirring. reduce heat to low and partially cover the pot, let cook like this with occasional stirring for about 40 minutes. add more liquid for a runnier consistency. i always add a touch of maple syrup at the end! 

Soft Reminders While Weight Restoring

in a society that praises weight loss, weight restoration in eating disorder recovery is nothing short of complicated. it’s one of the most daunting tasks you’ll take on because it challenges you in so many ways. it feels impossible until it’s done. there’s so much irrational fear that rises at the beginning, but staying mindful of the long-term goal is necessary for quieting that voice of doubt!

in case you needed to hear it, remember…the weight will distribute, the bloating and pain and discomfort will subside, the hunger cues will regulate. food will become less of a chore and more of a pleasure. the way you look will stop dictating your life, and you’ll find validation and happiness in the feats you accomplish that are beyond visual perception. you are strong, you will endure this process, and i promise you, you’ll find your way.

please note that it’s SO important to work closely with a medical professional during this time. your weight and your health are a serious issue and need to be addressed in a manner that matches this. i weight restored under an inpatient hospitalization program led by a team of doctors, and later i continued outpatient with my parents and an outpatient team monitoring my intake. i am NOT a medical professional and am not providing medical advice. i’m simply sharing my experience and what i learned from the process after going through it myself.

some tips for dealing with weight restoration;

  • power through the first two weeks.

this is arguably the scariest part of the process. it’s also the most vulnerable time to slip back, so support during these days needs to be at an all-time time. whether that support comes from your family, friends, a treatment team…anyone, anything. something to hold you accountable.

*fun fact: @healthfulradiance actually began as an eating disorder recovery food diary to hold myself accountable during weight restoration. yep! way back in the day (any OG followers remember @seekingstrongerwings? yep, that happened too). i used the instagram recovery community as a means of support. i would post my breakfast because once it was out there in the world, i felt i had to stick to it. i exposed my meals because it stripped me of my ability to hide and lie, say i ate something without ever being accountable to actually do so.

anyway, make sure you hold yourself accountable, however that looks for you. this isn’t your norm, the whole eating 4,000 calories a day thing. (i want to note here that you should be working with a medical professional to increase caloric intake in a safe and methodical way. going from eating restricted amounts of food to doubling or tripling that amount overnight can be SO harmful to your body, please take caution!!!!). but it won’t be your norm forever, you can’t see it that way. it’s your norm for right now, so the quicker you get over the shock factor that comes with it and the more you normalize it, it will get easier.

  • stay distracted

okay, so your body is changing…don’t. fixate. on. it. i know what you’re thinking, “ALL of the weight is going to my ______, what’s going on!?”. THE WEIGHT WILL DISTRIBUTE. please be patient, please trust your body, please believe in the process. when i was weight restoring i was paranoid that my stomach would just grow and grow until it quite literally exploded. the weight will find its way to the right places but it won’t be able to do that if you stand in its way. give things time.

during that grace period, move on with your life. during this time i spent a lot of time with others, as focusing on socializing kept my mind occupied. my sisters and i would take silly little day trips on weekends. i would run pointless errands with my mom, help my dad with housework, call my grandma and chat for hours (something i still do, because IMPORTANT). the more time i spent investing in my relationships and making memories, the less time i had to pick myself apart. i spent less time with myself because my judgement and attention weren’t what my body needed. my body needed food, rest, and everything else would fall into place.

  • no body checking!

i didn’t even know what the phrase meant until my roommate at the hospital warned me about it when i went home for thanksgiving. i remember so vividly her sitting on her bed, wishing me a safe trip to my cousin’s house, “oh, and whatever you do, don’t body check. avoid full length mirrors!”. we didn’t have any of these at the hospital. seeing one for the first time after a month would surely be triggering.

while you’re weight restoring, your body will change shape and size. this is inevitable and shouldn’t come as a surprise. this is also rationally speaking. eating disorders are irrational, and it will convince you that you’re doing the wrong thing. NOT TRUE. the best way to avoid having to confront this irrational fear is to avoid seeing it. for some time, it’s going to be DAMN HARD to look at yourself in the mirror. you’ll feel out of place, foreign, confused. this is natural and it’s okay.

i weight restored in the summer in NJ, where most days are spent in bathing suits and not much else. i knew i couldn’t spend those months holed up in my room alone. i needed to go on those beach trips, have my friends over swimming, grab ice cream for lunch. these were challenges in my recovery that would make me better. what made them manageable for me was doing them all in a baggy t shirt, aka avoiding tight clothing. when i found myself in a bathing suit, i never, ever looked in a full length mirror. body checking, no thanks!

swimming with others was extra hard because i found myself wanting to compare my body with theirs. i was always envious of so-and-so’s this or that, never happy with my own body. but what helped me work through this was constant positive self-talk. when i found my mind slipping into comparison, i made a point to step back and say, “does this matter at all to me? is this going to help me get through this recovery?”. the answer was always no. and so i was able to move on rationally knowing that i was on the better path.

  • embrace it!

use this time to really push your palate. try EVERYTHING and ANYTHING. you gotta eat, you might as well enjoy it! this time was when i really began to pick up cooking. i figured, i have to eat, why not make it fun? i cooked a lot with my parents and broke nearly all of my food rules in the process. nothing was off limits anymore. i was free to gain the weight however i wanted to. and while i initially didn’t WANT to, knowing that i HAD to gave me that extra push to try it all.

today i eat *mostly* plant-based. i don’t eat much meat (except for my dad’s sunday meat sauce and my mom’s meatballs!), i don’t eat dairy, but i do eat fish and eggs. hard to put a label on all that! nevertheless, one thing i want to make super clear is that while i was weight restoring, I HAD NO LIMITATIONS ON MY DIET. i believe i earned the right to eat the way i do today. while recovering i ate everything. i made it a point to restore my relationship with ALL foods, no limits, no restrictions. the way i eat today reflects what i’ve found to leave me feeling and functioning my best. this is because these are my CURRENT goals. while weight restoring, your only goal is to restore your health and put on however much weight is needed to do so.

again, i’m not a medical professional in any way, but i love to chime into this recovery conversation when i can. if you’re currently weight restoring, i hope these tips can prove useful to your journey! remember, all discomfort is temporary, but the rewards that come from that pain are timeless.

now what’s for dinner!?

Kitchen Counter Fudge Brownies

Vegan, Grain-Free, Gluten-Free, Refined Sugar-Free

You’re probably wondering whatttttttt the name of these brownies means. If you know me at all, you know that I have a savory craving 9 times out of 10. But the other night the sweet tooth I never knew I had was asking for brownies and it just wouldn’t shut up. Since I had just come home for the weekend from school, I didn’t have many groceries to work with here. And then, I saw them: a sweet potato and a ripe avocado, all cute and comfy snuggled up on the counter. You know where it goes from here…I gotta say, I didn’t think these would work but they. are. so. GOOD. You don’t taste either the potato or avocado, they’re purely for texture. And trust me, the texture is what makes these. Rich and fudgy and so dense…what are you waiting for?

 

 

Kitchen Counter Brownies:

-1 large steamed sweet potato
-1 large ripe avocado (or 2 medium ones)
-1/2 cup cacao powder
-1/2 cup + 2 tablespoon pure maple syrup (save the tbsp for later in the recipe)
-1/2 cup almond flour
-vanilla
-sea salt
-1/2 cup chopped walnuts  (split in half, some for the batter and the rest for topping)

To quickly steam the sweet potato, I poked a few holes in it and then wrapped it in two layers of damp paper towel. Put it on a microwave-safe plate and microwave for about 7-9 minutes (depending on how strong your microwave is, i did 8). While thats cooking combine the avocado and maple syrup. In a food processor and pulse until well-mixed. then add in the cacao powder and almond flour and mix again, add the two tablespoons of maple syrup. Add the steamed sweet potato (no skin) and blend on high until fudgy and rich (about 3 minutes). Fold in the walnuts (DONT blend, pulse quickly or do it by hand). pour batter into a parchment paper lined 8×8 brownie pan and bake at 350 for 20 minutes. These won’t hold together all that well since they’re insanely fudgy, so let them cool completely (I did overnight) before cutting and serving!

 

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Chocolate Hummus Cheesecake Bars

I could literally talk for the next 3 days straight about my undying loyalty to hummus, but if you know me you know that by now. And if you don’t, just note that the previous statement is NOT a hyperbole. I love hummus so much that I decided to make dessert with it. Hear me out: chocolate hummus can make a FINE cheesecake sub. Like, veryyyyyy fine.

 

Chocolate Hummus Cheesecake Bars:

Crust:

1 bag @healinghomefoods peanut butter chocolate chip granola
1/3 cup coconut oil

Blend these until well combined and then press mixture firmly on the bottom of a brownie pan lined with parchment paper. Place in the freezer to harden. 

Filling:

1 can rinsed and drained chickpeas
1/3 cup coconut oil
1/4 cup cacao powder
1/4 cup maple syrup
sea salt
vanilla

Blend these ingredients together and spread on top of the crust. Place back in freezer for about an hour or until hardened. I placed these back in the fridge to soften a little before eating and store them there from that point forward!

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Vegan Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookies

This is the first time I’ve tried whipping the butter, sugar, and egg together in a cookie recipe and I’ve got to say, I found it to make a big texture difference. These are soft and chewy and everything a cookie should be. Plus, omitting the oats leaves you with a grain-free chocolate chip cookie, so it’s almost a double whammy right?

Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookies:

•1/2 cup coconut sugar
•1/4 cup melted vegan butter
•1 flax egg (can sub regular egg) (mine is 2 tablespoons ground flax with about 1 tablespoon water, sitting for about 5 min)

beat this together with an electric mixer. in a separate bowl mix:

•1 cup almond flour
•1/4 cup coconut flour
•1/4 cup oats
•chocolate chips

pour wet mix into the dry and mix thoroughly until well combined. roll into balls and baked on a greased cookie sheet at 350 for about 12 minutes.  let cool completely!